So Sad

I just got back from the doctor and all I can say is I am still really really pregnant...No, I haven't dilated one bit from last week. Yes, I cried when I left the doctor's office. Yes, I just finished crying. And yes, I will probably continue to cry off and on until this baby is out! I had absolutely no idea how much my emotions would be thrown for a loop! Okay, I have gone through this before when I am on my period or something, but nothing has ever lasted for days and even weeks! All I have to say is poor, poor Jeff. He has been sooooooo patient though and just sits and holds me and tells me it will be alright, even though my emotions range from outright anger to the deepest depression I have ever experienced. It is tough and I am glad I don't have other children right now as I learn how to cope with these mood swings. Lots of praying and lots of reading my scriptures and listening to uplifting music have helped some and then venting to my mom helps too because she just listens and I can say whatever I darn well please without worrying about being judged and her not loving me anymore.

The doctor told me last week that he would be able to induce me at 40 weeks, but now he doesn't think insurance would cover it until I am 41 weeks because I am too healthy. By then my mom will be gone and Jeff will be in finals and that is what upsets me. He has six tests and two clerkships to do that week. And these aren't just your run of the mill tests. Dental school tests you study for at least a week in advance if you want to do well, so hopefully he will get some study time in the week my mom is here.

I did get my membranes stripped today and I lost my mucous plug a week ago, but still no contractions. I have tried acupressure and exercising practically until I could only lay on the couch and breathe, like today I walked six miles and cleaned the whole house and yesterday I did elliptical for 40 minutes and walked for another 40...nothing. Not even Bracton Hicks contractions! Really, I am not that uncomfortable and I don't mind being pregnant, but I am scared that the baby will come after everyone has left and Jeff is taking a final. Sorry for the pessimism, but I have to warn you, it may just get worse after the baby is born, according to post-partum information! :)

On a happy note, though, one of my friends just had twin girls early than expected and they are both healthy and doing well! That makes me smile because they have been waiting so long for these babies! Here is a real smile :)!

Our Christmas Tree

Jeff and I set up our Christmas tree this weekend. It was so fun and really made it feel more like the holidays. Out here it has been about 70F so it doesn't feel like Thanksgiving or Christmas are near. The grass is still green and there are leaves on the trees (although they are dying). It is strange and I don't exactly like no snow and no cold, so we will for sure be moving back to the northwest as soon as Jeff is done with dental school. Here is the finished product! I took off the flash so you could see the lights on the tree better.
Jeff setting up the lights.
These are Jeff's precious ornaments...his cars. Hallmark puts out a new one each year and his grandma started buying them for him when he was young. Every year she still sends him one. He has quite a collection and it is his job to hang them up. They are very special :)
A terrible picture of me hanging stuff up on the tree, but you get the idea.
This picture is for everyone to see my haircut that Jeff gave me! Yep, he cut it all by himself! He did a great job!This pic didn't turn out, but you can see my tummy and how far it sticks out. I am a little over 8 1/2 months pregnant AND I went to the doctor today. I am so excited because I am 1-2 cm dilated and 20% effaced! Still don't think I have had any contractions, but I really have no idea. Maybe he will come soon! The doctor also said he thinks the baby weighs 6-7 lbs. right now. I was a little concerned because I had a dream the other night that the baby weighed 10 pounds when he was born! Ugh!

Trans-Siberian Orchestra - Wizards in Winter

Last Saturday Jeff and I went to a concert put on by the Trans-Siberian Orchestra. We figured it may be our last time doing something fun together just the two of us, so we splurged. It was Jeff's first concert and mine too (almost) and it was awesome! Some of it was a bit cheesy, like the blond long-haired girls who kept head banging and dancing like strippers to the side and the narrator way overdid his part, then rocked out on the chair he sat on to the side. He was just plain wierd! But the rest was awesome! They had fireworks and fire that changed color and came up out of the middle of the audience. When the fire lit up, we could feel the heat from it. And the guitars were great! Overall, we really enjoyed ourselves and would have rated it an 8-9 out of 10. One thing is for sure, the baby really enjoyed it! He was going nuts the whole time! Needless to say, he slept a lot the next day.

Timbaland pres. OneRepublic - Apologize (Original)

This is my new favorite song. I am not sure why I like it, but I especially just love the beginning. No idea what it is about and probably best that way!

Just One More Post for Today

Today I went to dental school! Jeff had a group presentation and was singing a song he wrote, so I went to watch and just hang out. He also dressed up, as you can tell. Their presentation was about elderly and oral health, so he dressed up in his old baby blue suit with highwater pants and white shoes. It was a hit! He was hilarious! Pretty much he saved his presentation...It was getting a little boring. He got tons and tons of compliments and had the whole class laughing, including the professor.

Here are the lyrics:

Put in a home the other night
Everyone tells me it will be alright
They took my keys so I can’t drive
Just because I turned 65

Now that I’m 65
I am barely alive
Can’t remember you name
Elderly and in pain, Elderly and in pain

My mom told me prevention is the key
To stopping periodontal disease
I ignored all her constant pleas
Now my mouth is full of caries

Just cuz I turned 65
I am barely alive
Life just isn’t the same
Drilled on and in pain, Drilled on and in pain

Pulled all my teeth and gave me dentures
All they feed me now is a can of Ensure
My dentist told me I’m getting old
Then he took my entire billfold

Just cuz I turned 65
And I am barely alive
But I am not to blame
Lost my teeth and in pain, lost my teeth and in pain

For those of you who live nearby and missed out, I would encourage you all to ask him to play and sing it for you. It is worth it.

Our Recent Blessings

Jeff and I have been so so so blessed when it comes to receiving stuff for our baby. I had a wonderful baby shower where I got tons of stuff that I didn't even think of getting and probably would have just done without.

We recently bought this pack and play, which will act as our bassinet as well for the first little bit. When we went to Target last Saturday night to look for one, we saw this one on sale $20.00 off and wanted it but they were all out and they said they didn't have any in the back. Well, I went there on Monday with a friend and just for kicks walked by to see if, by chance, they had more of the pack and play and they did! Two more! So Jeff and I went to Target later that day and he asked the manager if we could have it for the price we originally wanted to buy it for and they said yes! So, we got this awesome pack and play for a great price! It has a changing table, bassinet insert with crib bumpers, a mobile, and plays music/sounds. I love it and my wonderful husband set it all up! So exciting! P.S. This is the only new thing we bought for the baby. Everything else has been secondhand, but still in great condition. Craig's list all the way!
Another great "deal" we have gotten lately is this recliner. I was looking for one so I could sit in the baby's room and rock and nurse him, but they were all so expensive and us being dental students, I was just going to have to do without, but our missionaries are moving out of their apartment and had to get rid of all their furniture, so I asked about it, thinking it would be in terrible shape and not worth it, but still interested in at least looking. This is what we got! I couldn't believe it! It is the exact recliner I was looking at at Sam's Club. Of course, it is a little worn and there is a small tear in the fabric on the left arm, but it is in great shape and it doesn't stink either :).
Now we are ready for the baby to come. The lice are gone. Meals are all made. I just need to get my bag packed and the baby actually needs to stop swimming around in my ribs and make his way down a little! Jeff and I are predicting a baby that is over eight pounds, 21 inches long with a big head and that he will be late late late by sevaral days.

George Update

George is doing better! This is him recovering from his sickness. I actually took this picture when I was pretty sure he was going to die. I wanted one of him still alive, but now he is back to normal and flaring his gills at me and being his moody old self! I am so happy! Whoever thought a fish could actually get better and that they need vitamins and antibiotics when they get sick? With a little babying he is healthy once again. It may take us awhile for his fungus problem to get totally better, but at least he is eating again. Yeah for George!